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Reflecting in writing

Artificia I always say I struggle to find my medium, writing is suggested to help. Different media - images videos, physical also. Books Journal, dream book, real life experiences.

This Portal & Futures

XX + also personal simulator and personal ai systems this process for everyone and its very sacred how it is shared, trusted to share and stored for sovereign AI futures. Futures and dreams.

Health & Physical Body

Infinite . Somatic.

Creativity

Infinite

Thinking

I think too much. I need to prioritise and allow experiences in my life that are more physical and creative.

Neuroplasticity & My Brain

Infinite . A fascinating research space for me. Also my personal experience of my brain: Forgetful? Slower but faster? Supplements, stress, new, lifestyle, love. Money + life + new stress and my body and brain. Visual vs audio learning— feeling and being made to feel stupid cos i cant remeber spoken things. Names, agreements, suggestions, details. I can't. I need this help and expectations in my personal life and relationships too. Especially while my brain has been hurting these past few years.

Spaces, Settings, Geography: Living in them

Infinite

Cats!

Humans

Family

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Confidence

Infinite

Community

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Depression

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Stress

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Calm

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Our "Times"

First, it's important to ignore the time. Usually we go in cycles and there is a lot of noise you don't need to give space or time to. Rationalism. Media. Politics-urgh. Space/Time. You create what you focus on. World most needs more kindness, creativity, listening, connection and sharing. This is true at all times.

AI/A"G"I

Infinite

Love

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Thom

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Marcus

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New Ideas & Dream "work"

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Realising "New"

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Past

Starting "New"

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ESMT

Hmm. I guess I wanted to learn "business" to change it. ESMT taught me what to change and the sexism was a bout of fun. I met one life-long friend who I admire through and through, the others were not imaginative enough or activist to connect mutually with, the rest—no comment.

• It didn't do what it said on the tin, or I didn't read the tin well enough to start with. Since I chose ESMT for it's values and "entrepreneurship"—lol—this was a disappointment.

• The education was good. Most professors too, except that one I called out and left the classroom, and the others that needed to read "The Letter" a few times I guess.

• I was the recipient of the annual president award (voted by professors, staff and students) which was a surprise to me since I was planning on skipping the graduation and wanted to quit if my debt would have made sense. So I guess people could see I was kind, hard working and had a vision of the future.

• I'm grateful for this experience.

UCL

Depression, academic excitement, wrong choice: I'm more polymath and I did like math. I always felt retroactively that I should have studied, if anything, computer science and something else. I am however, grateful for the courses in post-structuralism, post-modernity and for being a lateral thinker overall I guess. Studying philosophy was definitely pivotal for me, and philosophy around technological developments in the past. Also, it's good to understand language, studying art was good and beyond that I guess I didn't love it. I do LOVE UCL's culture and economic stances at large. I also love it makes you an independent thinker and its liberal tendencies overall. My real friends were weirdos and certainly didn't all know each other very well. Other friends were the dead philosophers, yet they made good points. I enjoyed designing my fashion collections annually for the society and designing new concepts and being early in sustainable design craft.

I am glad I moved on from this era and it is absolutely insane that you can't change course once you started. I would have been much happier and more aligned with my skills.

UCL is still my alma mater and I like to keep engaged rather as an Alumni.

Also, I was generally too skinny during these years and didn't have a good relationship with that and the world of modelling.

PRE-UCL

All time from childhood into teenage years and pre-ucl era. Buddhism, language, art, travel, spaces art, renewal art.

Childhood

Growing up

Other Lives

Not past lives only, but potential parallel and certainly future.